But the issue has been and still continues to be a difficult aspect of this. I have acted this way for almost as long as I can remember and now, I get very angry and defensive about aspects of depression that I think are "just me," such as liking to sleep a lot.
It is hard for me to see myself as chronically depressed because I have a full time job where I am fairly successful and am a leader. Each day, I accomplish many things. In other words, I don't sit around all day unable to function, which is how I have always viewed depressed people.
Yet if I look at a list of signs of depression, I exhibit all of them to some degree or another. My husband has let me know our whole relationship that there has always been something below the surface, an unhappiness and unwillingness to want to go out and experience new things.
Honestly, I am terrified of this diagnosis. I do not like the term "mental illness" and would rather run away from it all. But I am going to loose everything soon if I don't deal with it.